Thursday, April 25, 2013

I Want More...the Voice of Rebellion

I just finished two tortilla's filled with crock pot beans and part-skim mozzarella cheese. They were so good. I want more. It's not about being hungry. I like the taste and I like eating. I also like the comfort eating provides when I'm feeling stress.

Two weeks ago I would've simply gone with the craving for more. Another tortilla, a cookie, potato chips, whatever I wanted, but I've joined Weight Watchers. In order for it to work, I have to list all the data: the food, the wine the exercise and the amount of each. I have to confess.

Paul talks about his freedom in Christ and his freedom from the law. Jesus came, fulfilled the law and set us free to walk with the Spirit. The bad news is we are living in the flesh and until we hit heaven, we'll struggle
There is a dialogue that goes on inside my head:

"You can have more. You cooked it and it's good for you. After the day you've had, you deserve more." This is the voice of rebellion. 

"Yes, but if I eat that extra piece or have another glass of wine I'll have to come clean as I record the points on Weight Watcher's tracker."  A confession from the voice of obedience. 
"But you're a grandma, grandma's are round. You love grandmas, you can be as fat as you want. There's no law against it" I hear these words from the fleshy me.
"That's true, but I want to lose weight to take the pressure off my knees and hips so they won't hurt. I want to lose weight not because I have to but because I want to. I want my clothes to fit. I want to look good." Ahhh, the Spirit speaks.
Alistair Begg says, "you belong to the power you choose to obey." Do I choose to obey the power of the flesh; self-satisfaction and rebellion? Or do I go with obeying the power of obedience; Weight Watchers, exercise and diligence?
Am I making progress on my Christian journey? Have I been transformed? Does God's activity in my life show? Obedience is the evidence of the change God has made in me.
My counsel is this: Live freely, animated and motivated by God's Spirit.
Then you won't feed the compulsions of selfishness.
 For there is a root of sinful self-interest in us that is at odds with a free spirit,
 just as the free spirit is incompatible with selfishness.
These two ways of life are antithetical,
 so that you cannot live at times one way and at times another way
 according to how you feel on any given day.
Why don't you choose to be led by the Spirit
 and so escape the erratic compulsions of a law-dominated existence? 
Galatians 5:16-18 Message Bible
Here's the list of reminders I turn to when I need help following the Spirit to lose weight:
  • Pick up your journal and record in it your stream of thoughts. Ask the Lord to lead you as you struggle in the moment of craving more.
  • Take a bath. Spend quiet time in the warmth and relax into His arms.
  • Take a walk. Satisfy the exercise part of your weight loss program and enjoy the fresh air and beauty of nature at the same time. Lately, I've plugged into sermons as I walk.
  • When the cravings come, remember the AA slogan: When all else fails, follow directions.
  • Reassure the part of you that wants to "bolt" from the uncomfortable moment and eat more. Soothe it with an accepting and understanding attitude. Beware of a shaming tone. Not good. Doesn't work. Write out these words and keep them close: It's OK, you're going to be all right. You're safe. You can get through this moment.  
Dear Lord, thank You for being with me on this weight loss journey. When I struggle I'll turn to You for encouragement, wisdom and love. I appreciate the body You've given me and want to take good care of it. Thank You for the radical change You've made in my life. In Jesus' name, Amen.





  1. Polly! Thank you for sharing this post. I am pretty sure all of us have felt this way...more than once. Keep it up. We all need to hear this.

    1. Changing eating habits sure is a day by day effort, but starting is the hard part. My friend Patty spoke of diet as getting into a rhythm. I like that. Thank you for reading the blog dear Nancy.

  2. Wow Polly! You are amazing! You blog is so authentic, takes us right where we live...I absolutely love it. It always speaks to my heart. Thank you!

  3. Thank you Susan. Is it Klondike bars or Skinny Cows that are your treat? Mine, skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches. I always think of you when I have my treat. Love it that you read my blog. xoxoxo

  4. "Live freely, animated and motivated by God's Spirit" Inspirational quote to live by. Congrats Polly on setting an attainable goal for yourself. One day at a time!

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